I haven't written in a few days...I've been in a weird space and really don't think that's worth sharing. There are some family issues out there and I can't seem to stop thinking about them. I guess we all feel this way; when someone in our family gets hurt, we naturally want to make it better and it just doesn't always work that way.

Sometimes I feel like everyone is more interesting than me and really why should that bother me? I'm sure it's just a leftover insecurity. I'm looking forward to the weekend; a blogger friend is going to be in the neighborhood and that will be fun because I already feel like we have a bond and I think they are interesting and nice people. One of my favorite things is to meet new people and find out what their lives are like.

I really want to write and I want to be a better writer. I'm looking for ways to do that. I know that my writing comes from mostly an emotional level. I write what I feel so if I don't feel a certain way, my writing reflects that. No one wants to read a troublesome blog! I don't want to be a whiny blogger. Uh oh, now I'm making myself laugh. You'd think at age 60 a person would have it all together....finally, but life just doesn't happen like that. I'm sitting here in San Carlos looking out at the most beautiful water and mountains and sometimes I can't see it at all. Most of the time I do though. It is, indeed, a lovely day, and a lovely spot. We will start building our house soon. I think that's part of what is causing my unsettled feelings; so many things pending and nothing has quite come together yet. It's just a matter of time. There is nothing standing in our way; all is well with the plans, the construction team, the permits. Bruce and I have put together a beautiful plan that suits us, nothing fancy, just a reflection of us with room for kids and grandkids to enjoy it with us.

All is well in our little town (as far as I know). Yesterday we went to Guaymas to look for lawn chairs, the chaise type; plastic would be just fine. We didn't find any. Everyone looked at me with a perplexed look on their faces.....is it the end of the season or something? There were tons of plastic chairs and tables, and lots of those Coleman type chaises for camping, but frankly I can barely get my butt out of them to stand up so I hate those. I'm sure there's a chaise type plastic chair here somewhere! We will probably have to go to Hermosillo to find them. We can get everything else here so I try to avoid going to Hermosillo if I can. I'll go in the winter when it's cooler. I believe Hermosillo does have my favorite department store, Liverpool so it's just a matter of time before I venture up there. I'm also looking for a hummingbird feeder. We have so many hummingbirds here. They are so lovely. I guess I want my own little family of hummingbirds hanging out exclusively at our place while they're in town. We have dear friends in the Berkshires who have hummingbirds start visiting around Memorial Day and I always wonder if they make it down here at some point. I like to think that they do.